joecooliscool123's Blog

I had a friend.  I'd known her since... god, it seems like forever.  Things happened, and she really hurt me. I asked for her help during a crucial situation and she turned her back on me.  On the surface it seems as if I'm completely over it.  On the surface it seems like she's completely over it.  But then, I come on here and realize how some people fake it completely, just so that they don't cry in public.  I know she's not over it.  I know she wishes that she was still friends with me.  I'm not even completely over it.  Sometimes I'll look back in my journal and read about how one day we had "the best day ever". Haha, we were so young then!  But then we grew up and... she just.... hurt me so badly that every time I look at her I think of how many times she's talked about me behind my back, or how she didn't help me.  Then I realize that she never really was my friend.  She never treated me like an equal, just someone that she had to be around to get to this other girl we were friends with.  It hurts sometimes, but I'm slowly moving on and growing up.  This is just a small part of life, and in the end, I believe it will make me a better person.   

Just so everyone who expects me to put up posts and stuff.....

I probably will not. Ever. I just go on here to read other ppls experiences, and set goals for myself. I'm not exactly a big fan of making the few problems in my life known.  And anyway, I usually don't have any problems.  Just the occasional quibble (and yes, I did say quibble) with parents, but those never last long and they are always over something stupid and trivial.  Not that big a deal....

So you know how I said I go on here to read other people's experiences and stuff?  I hope that didn't make me sound wierd (or weird, however u spell it).  Because I just want to be able to see what other people's lives are like.  I try to see things from your perspective, but if I object to something, you will see a comment from me saying that you're wrong or whatever.

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